"it isn't enough that i should succeed, others should fail!"

came across this quote on the net..and it got me thinking (no mean feat i tell you)
you know, people are striving so hard to get somewhere,be somewhere..
there is so much pressure from all directions and mostly from inside ourselves..(and no!not the kind of pressure which requires a trip to the loo)
ambition has become a second name for all of us.
being ambitious is a great thing..but ambition has an evil sister known as jealousy
and you know what, nothing gives people more pleasure than seeing somebody else fail..

i've had some time off from my hopelessly hectic schedule.3 years of racing the clock in college and right now, i'm in a position where i don't even know what day it is much less what time it is.
it takes some getting used to. believe me, i've spent a few weeks fretting and worrying and wondering whether there isn't something else i should be doing.i'm restless and full of apprehensions..everybody seems to be doing so well for themselves...people are working 24/7 and relishing it.
all of it makes me feel left out,like the world has moved on without me and right now i have no part in it.and i hate it..i hate not being in the midst of it all..not 'furthering my career' so to say. i'm jealous of everybody in the world bar none..right from the milkman to the prime-minister. why?i don't know, maybe coz they're all in a position in their lives where they know what's happening around them.maybe coz they know what's going to happen next.. while i'm really clueless.

but you know what, i don't really care any more. or maybe i've just moved on.
i've had enough of harboring negative emotions. they affect no1 but me..right?
so what if i'm not doing what the rest of the world is doing.so what if i'm not following the path which everybody else is.
i'm sure i'll reach my destination just the same..maybe a year later..maybe ten years later.
i believe in myself and no matter what happens..i'm sure it will be for the best..
(okay..i sound like a representative for the church of england)
it's quite true you know, happiness comes from within us.the more comfortable we are with whatever situation we are in .. the more acceptable it seems.
my dad has been telling me this from the age of four..apparently,it took some time to sink in!

so really
enjoy whatever stage of life you are in..tomorrow might be a better day or a worse one.
"if its meant for you, it will not pass you by"
its up to us to make ourselves happy ..
and frankly i think eating a huge bag of doritos just about makes me as happy as i can be!
:)